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Blogger’s Dream Number 186

Blogger's Dream Number 186It was a sunny afternoon as I sat quietly, putting the finishing touches on my new e-book.

I was pleased the way it came out.

Lots of good information, tightly packaged and easy to follow.

I knew my new prospects would really like it, and find tremendous value.

That was good news because when people find value in what you give them, they tend to stick with you for a long time to come. But you probably already knew that.

I waited for the final version of my sales page to fire up.

Internet was slow.

I stretched, looked out the window.

The leaves were dry and crackly, chasing each other down the sidewalk where children raced their bikes. An old lady pushed her walker to the curb to escape the reckless riders.

Tomorrow would be Halloween, and it was a classic autumn day.

The sun gave way to a dark, blustery cloud and everything got quiet.

The old oak tree stared up at me, as the sky grew cold.

But a strange shadow fell over the sidewalk and I peered to see what was causing it.

My sales page was probably open on my desktop, but my eyes were locked on the shadow.

Suddenly, it gave way to a human figure. A hideous face with eyes like darts stared up at me and I jumped back from the window.

I dropped the blinds as I sat up straight in my bed, wide-eyed and confused.

I was in a sweat and everything was dark.

The dog was sound asleep at the foot of the bed and I got to my knees to pet him, to know whether or not I was still asleep.

I prodded him to walk with me as I made my way to the window. The dog stretched and yawned while my fingers trembled.

I lifted one of the slats in the blind to cast a stealthy glance into the street, dimly lit by a faded street lamp.

Nobody was there.

I made my way back to bed, determined to get back to sleep.

Morning would come soon enough and I had a lot to do.

I needed to write an auto-responder series for subscribers of all the new subscribers who would rush in to grab my free e-book.

Now, what would I say to welcome them?

Should I just give them information, or promote one of my training courses, right out of the gate?

Maybe I should start by outlining the sales funnel I’d be taking them through…

Too many thoughts, my head was in a spin.

I had hours to go before day break as I returned suddenly to the deepest sleep.

Still, I went to work on my sales funnel.

A soft knock at the door interrupted me.

It was him!

I knew it was the man from the street.

He was here.

Why was he following me, taunting and chiding me at every turn?

I sat silently, hoping the knocking would stop.

But it got louder.

I put the pillow over my head.

But, still, I heard his voice above the noise of his relentless knocks.

“What do you think you’re doing?” he roared.

“You pretend to be an online marketer…” and he laughed, a wild, menacing laugh.

That product’s not going to sell. You can’t even give it away. You’ve done all this work for nothing. You’ll have to start all over. Nobody’s going to want it. What’s wrong with you?

All the time, the noise got louder.

“You can’t even give it away.”

I told myself it was just a dream, but I still heard his laughs.

“You’ve done all this work for nothing.”

“Stop!” I screamed back.

“I’m not listening to you. I’m never listening to you again.”

A soft laugh came from behind the door.

“You’ll have to start all over.”

Then silence.

I leapt from my bed.

All the while, though, I knew I was still asleep.

I ran across the room, moonlight peering from behind the curtain of a small window at the other side of the room.

The dog was gone.

I wondered why he had never barked.

He wasn’t there to protect me. I was alone.

I had to finish getting this project done, but now I was distracted.

When I got to the window, I hesitated.

What if he was standing under the street light, peering up at me with that menacing sneer?

My hands trembled, but there was work to do.

My sales page looked terrible… still needed work.

Who did I think I was?

I was no copywriter.  Or, not as good as I had been telling myself.

Maybe I should just trash it and start from scratch.

Maybe the whole e-book needs to be written.

Is it nearly as good as I though it was?

I slowly lifted one of the slats, ever so slightly.

I hardly touched the blind when the whole thing came unhinged and fell to the floor.

The crash broke my breathless silence and his face was in the window.

Again he taunted me.

“You think you can succeed? Ha! Who do you think you are?”

Only the thin glass separated him from me.

He laughed and snarled and pointed his finger at me.

I tried to run away, but my feet wouldn’t move.

“You’ll never get away from me,” he growled.

He laughed ever louder.

Somehow, I knew he was right. I could never escape.

“What do you want? Who are you?” I demanded.


He never spoke again, but as the darkness gave way to the breaking light of day, I could see him clearly.

I finally realized…

He was me.

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45 Responses to Blogger’s Dream Number 186

  1. vinton samms October 17, 2015 at 11:41 pm #

    Hi David,
    I am just wondering what it is you had for dinner that evening? As I read your epic tale I could not help but noticed how vivid the story was and wondered were you really being taunted by a stranger, until it suddenly dawned on me that you ‘must be dreaming’. This would happen because of the anxiety built up in you to get this project off and running. I am sure you are not alone where this experience is concerned, that’s what happens when you are totally focused, you take it to bed with you. Needless to say I enjoyed the story.
    All the best.
    vinton samms´s last blog post ..10 Reasons why Online Entrepreneurs Fail

    • David Merrill 101 October 24, 2015 at 11:53 pm #

      It was a total dream, but as I recalled bits and pieces, I definitely did some creative editing, too.

      I guess it’s like the movies that the disclaimers state “fictitious, but based on actual events.”

      I’d call this “fictitious but based on parts of an actual dream.”

      I’m never too good at recalling my dreams, and actually, don’t usually recall them at all… much less make sense of them.

      Thanks for stopping by, Vinton.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..How Do Bloggers Make Big Bucks?

  2. Brenda Pace October 18, 2015 at 3:25 pm #

    Very powerful dream, David. Did you get the motivation you were seeking?

    Hope you are enjoying your weekend!

    Brenda Pace´s last blog post ..Time to Rebrand and Get Back to What’s Real

    • David Merrill 101 October 24, 2015 at 11:55 pm #

      Hi Brenda,

      Not sure about getting motivation, but I certainly felt I had to push harder to get past some negative intrusion… even if the intrusion was from my own negative self-talk.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..6 Steps To Affiliate Blogging

  3. Lesly Federici October 18, 2015 at 4:44 pm #

    Hey David …
    Oh that self-talk will get you every time and how often it happens! Right? So you listened and then you ignored it … congrats on your new e-book!
    Lesly Federici´s last blog post ..Celebrating Others

    • David Merrill 101 October 24, 2015 at 11:59 pm #

      First of all, Lesly, I wasn’t working on a new ebook. That was just the dream. I have been working on several other digital products though, so I guess it’s all the same in essence.

      But, yea, the negative self talk is always something that we have to fight off as we move forward. There’s always that subconscious part of yourself that tries to hold you back. Throughout the dream I thought it was someone trying to stop my progress, but in the end, it was my own subconscious negative self talk.

      It’s so much easier to blame the “demons” though, isn’t it? Gotta love the scapegoat.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..Getting Quality Backlinks To Your Blog

  4. Sue Bride October 18, 2015 at 11:18 pm #

    Consider the dream as filtering your doubts out of your life. They weren’t real. Either that or they were throwbacks to when you first started. I’m not sure what it says when you dream of yourself with a hideous face and eyes like darts though 🙂

    Any doubts I have come when I’m awake. I often dream up ideas which aren’t realistic or I remember them so fleetingly, I forget them when I’m fully awake. I’m not awake enough to write them down.

    One thing has been bugging me. I thought I read that Studiopress WordPress themes, which are now a one off payment, were going to be charged for annually. I’ve searched and searched but can’t find any information about that online. I’m assuming I dreamed about it because I was considering whether buying all the themes is worth it.
    Sue Bride´s last blog post ..Sociocaster Social Media Manager Review

    • David Merrill 101 October 25, 2015 at 12:06 am #

      I like that, Sue… my subconscious was just “filtering doubts out of my life”.

      I don’t think they were throwbacks, though. I don’t have a lot of negative thought holding me back when I’m doing things. But I think, even while we can put a positive spin on things we do, every now and then our subconscious thoughts are revealed, and they’re not always so rosy and rational.

      I guess your Studiopress themes dream is a case in point 🙂
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..How Do Bloggers Make Big Bucks?

  5. Reji Stephenson October 20, 2015 at 6:00 am #

    Hi David,

    This is the first time I am visiting your blog and find it interesting to go through your thoughts.I hope we will have more interactions in future too.

    Keep sharing and have a great time.


    Reji Stephenson
    Reji Stephenson´s last blog post ..List of top 50 technology blogs in India

    • David Merrill 101 October 25, 2015 at 12:17 am #

      Nice to see you here, Reji. And I’m glad you enjoyed the post.

      We always focus on methods, strategies, systems and technologies in building our business online.

      But in the end, it always gets back to mindset… how we deal with our hidden fears, uncertainties and irrational expectations.

      I suppose that’s what this was really all about.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..6 Steps To Affiliate Blogging

  6. Enstine Muki October 20, 2015 at 6:00 pm #

    Hey David,
    Don’t you think this post should get to the desk of some movie directors?

    If they put this on movie, I’ll be the first to grab a copy 😉
    Enstine Muki´s last blog post ..WordPress ecommerce theme ~ Most Flexible WP theme for your online shop!

    • David Merrill 101 October 25, 2015 at 12:19 am #

      Hi Enstine,

      Yea, I suppose I should try to get the movie rights for this. It would play nicely with this being Halloween season.

      Scary stuff, huh?
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..Keep It Short Stupid

  7. sazia kazia October 25, 2015 at 12:15 am #

    Wow wonderful post. Nice dream I really like the way of your writing. While reading I felt like I am watching these scenes. Thanks for sharing.

  8. Erika Mohssen-Beyk October 25, 2015 at 12:56 am #

    Hi David ,
    It sounds like a part of a book ,
    Maybe you can write a story around this dream.
    Good I never dream things like this
    usually I sleep very deep and good. .
    Thank you for this interesting dream story.
    Erika Mohssen-Beyk´s last blog post ..A Thank You And Appreciation

  9. Donna Merrill October 25, 2015 at 11:05 am #


    When you asked me if you should publish a “silly” post, I didn’t get to it until now…Boy am I sorry! This is amazing and I love the way you kept me in suspense. I first got worried that we were watching too many Scary movies these days that caused a nightmare. he he he

    But I commend you for writing such a wonderful piece that scares us all…the inner voice! Thanks for not waking me up,

    Donna Merrill´s last blog post ..What’s Your ROI?

  10. Chery Schmidt October 25, 2015 at 11:59 am #

    Hello David, These are the kind of dreams that wake us up so to say,

    Quite the kick in the but HUH? I loved this.

    Thanks for sharing
    Chery ;))
    Chery Schmidt´s last blog post ..Get Ready For Big Things To Happen In Your Life!

    • David Merrill 101 November 1, 2015 at 11:29 pm #

      Good to see you here, Chery.

      This certainly is the kind of dream that can have you tossing and turning.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..6 Steps To Affiliate Blogging

      • Chery Schmidt November 10, 2015 at 10:08 pm #

        Hello David, I just couldn’t resist coming back and reading again and of course I noticed your reply to my comment as well as the rest. HEHE I am curious about what you think Of Miriam’s comment? They do say that are dreams are full of messages??

        You have a great evening my friend
        Thanks again
        Chery :))
        Chery Schmidt´s last blog post ..Road Trip- My Adventure To Success

  11. Nirmala October 25, 2015 at 1:23 pm #

    Hi David,

    This is my first visit to your blog, I feel good.

    Nice to know about your e-book and I wish that your dream should come true 🙂

    I too get fantasy like this, but yours is great.

    Thanks for crafting this blog post, will try to be regular here.

    Have a productive week ahead.
    Nirmala´s last blog post ..10 Amazing WordPress Themes With Image Slider Of Premium Quality

  12. Mary Sloane October 25, 2015 at 4:31 pm #

    Wow David you should write fiction!

    There I was wondering what was really happening and would it end well?

    I know we do torment ourselves don’t we?

    I’m sure the ebook and its promotion were brilliant

    To the Top

    Mary Sloane´s last blog post ..Really $0.0003 per FB Engagement?

    • David Merrill 101 November 1, 2015 at 11:26 pm #

      Yea, I guess this was a pretty good case of how we can torture ourselves, Mary.

      Especially when we insist on perfection all the time.

      Perfection… now that’s a nightmare!
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..How Do Bloggers Make Big Bucks?

  13. Willena Flewelling October 25, 2015 at 6:24 pm #

    I agree with Mary — you should write fiction! 🙂 Maybe you did some creative editing of the bits and pieces, but you’ve certainly conveyed the way the dream made you feel — and the valuable lesson learned from it. It’s so often true, isn’t it, that we are our own worst enemy! Thanks for the powerful reminder.
    Willena Flewelling´s last blog post ..Little Robbie’s Big Day

    • David Merrill 101 November 9, 2015 at 7:22 pm #

      We’re always our worst enemy, Willena.

      I think that’s because nobody pays such careful attention to what we’re doing and saying than we do.

      Nowhere to run. Just gotta stop and face the music 🙂
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..Blogger’s Dream Number 186

  14. Akaahan Terungwa October 26, 2015 at 6:19 pm #

    Hi David,

    The worst critic and greatest source of fear in our lives will remain ourselves!

    However, the joy is that we know ourselves better than any fear…this means that, we can instantly recognize when insight speaks or when fear wants to take a good run 🙂

    Over the years, my policy has been simple: NO MATTER THE VOICE OR FEAR, SHIP THE GOODS!

    Know what David? Once I ship, it’s the coward in me – the huge, grey, hairy coward that congratulates me first 🙂


    Enjoy the day.

    Akaahan Terungwa
    Akaahan Terungwa´s last blog post ..August/September NTP Blog Hop: Taking Time Off And A Million Other Awesome Entries

    • David Merrill 101 November 9, 2015 at 7:24 pm #

      Great point, Akaahan.

      Nothing chases fear more effectively than action… especially clearly defined, purposeful action.

      Thanks for offering your observation, here.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..Blogger’s Dream Number 186

  15. Monna Ellithorpe October 28, 2015 at 6:35 pm #

    Hi David,

    I love this. I wasn’t sure where you were going with this but it definitely kept me in suspense.

    I use bits and pieces of dreams I have for lots of my stories.

    This was great and so happy you didn’t listen to “yourself.” LOL
    Monna Ellithorpe´s last blog post ..Overview of Traffic Monsoon – Short Version

    • David Merrill 101 November 10, 2015 at 7:18 am #

      That’s funny, Monna… there are many times when we’re best off not to listen to ourselves.

      But the good news is, we can always change the script we’ve given ourselves, and change our self-talk. When we change it consciously, eventually, the night creeping subconscious “us” fades away.

      It kind of reminds me of the TV commercial where Rob Lowe tells viewers “don’t be like this me.”

      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..6 Steps To Affiliate Blogging

  16. Miriam Slozberg November 5, 2015 at 7:48 pm #

    That is seriously a powerful dream, you may want to have it analyzed by someone who can really interpret dreams because dreams are full of messages that can be easily missed or misinterpreted, thanks for sharing!
    Miriam Slozberg´s last blog post ..Exploring the Eighth House

    • David Merrill 101 November 11, 2015 at 1:42 pm #

      I wonder how meaningful dreams really are, Miriam.

      I know it’s been the cornerstone of analysis for a long time, but to me, it’s kind of like interpreting a poem. The interpretation might sound great, but who knows if it’s ever accurate. I don’t think the poet even really has the analytical answer to what lies beneath.
      David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..Write Blog Posts Your Readers Want

  17. Isabel Raynaud November 6, 2015 at 4:46 pm #

    Hi there David,

    That dream was so vivid! I could not stop reading until I reach the end of the story. You should really call someone who knows about interpreting dreams to see what can tell you about it. Would love to hear about that results! Cheers!

  18. Kathryn Maclean November 8, 2015 at 4:15 pm #

    How spooky a tale you wrote there. Dreams are funny aren’t they?
    I suppose it is a combination of what we have been thinking all day and what our sub-conscious is working on.
    Combine that with your super writing ability and you get your wonderful article.
    Lately I have been dreaming about marketing things that I remember in little bits and pieces, but I also have had some very good ideas upon waking too. Great stuff David.
    Kathryn Maclean´s last blog post ..Up on Instagram

  19. Ryan Biddulph November 9, 2015 at 11:16 am #

    Hi David,

    I love this post. What a tale, what a dream, and what a neat depiction of Big Me vs little me. I hear the battle daily as my awareness expands one little bit at a time. Me vs me. The Unlimited, Whole and Complete, Infinite Being of who I really am vs. the ego. Fun stuff to watch unless it’s driving me nuts in the moment. Thanks so much for sharing David.

    Ryan Biddulph´s last blog post ..Download 7 eBooks for $6.93

  20. David Merrill 101 November 11, 2015 at 1:46 pm #

    I actually get a lot of direction and sometimes specific ideas from dreams and twilight reflections, Kathryn.

    Einstein used to say he developed his most profound solutions to complex formulas in the same way.

    So, I’m not sure how symbolic dreams are, but they seem to nudge our creativity toward the surface, don’t they?

    In this particular case, I used actual dream elements along with a strong dose of story telling to make a point.

    Who said writing blog posts can’t be fun?
    David Merrill 101´s last blog post ..How Do Bloggers Make Big Bucks?

  21. Joy Healey November 12, 2015 at 10:54 am #

    Hi David,

    Wow – another story-teller in the family (referring to Donna’s amazing creepy post the other day).

    Yes, a real lesson in your “dream”. That stalker is also stalking me in his spare time – and probably many other bloggers who don’t deserve his attentions.

    And yes, for me the stalker is also me.

    Very thought-provoking post, thanks, Joy
    Joy Healey´s last blog post ..Sizes Of Social Media Images

  22. Edward Thorpe November 12, 2015 at 4:28 pm #

    Hi David,

    From marketeer to novelist? Makes sense to me.

    Your post made me think of the lessons in the wonderful book “The Magic of Thinking Big” by David Schwartz.

    According to Schwartz, we tend to under credit our worth by the power of 10 (been some years, so I may be wrong 😉 and we give others more power than they’ve legitimately earned.

    i.e. we’re our own harshest critic!

    Thoughtful post…
    Edward Thorpe´s last blog post ..Nutritiously Healthy Breakfast Recipes That Taste Good

  23. Joan Harrington November 14, 2015 at 3:52 pm #

    Hi David 🙂

    What a creepy, yet suspenseful story lol. I was thinking as I was reading, boy David is such a great storyteller 🙂 You had me reading all the way to the end! Thank you!
    Joan Harrington´s last blog post ..What Are The 2 Most Important Words That Will Make You A More Effective Blogger

  24. Mary Sloane November 15, 2015 at 9:19 am #

    Thanks David for a lesson in a story!

    Humans are so interesting we are so many faces of ourselves. Fear is definitely one of them

    Plans and action seem to be the antidote and you put it into action.

    To the Top

    Mary Sloane´s last blog post ..Become a High Paid Strategist not a Lowly Paid Tactician

  25. Barrie Evans November 15, 2015 at 1:17 pm #

    Hi David,
    Very gripping story. Also, I got the message from it about the way negative self talk creeps up on us all one time or another.
    It was ME!
    Good stuff.
    Barrie Evans´s last blog post ..Why It’s Important To Focus On the Present.

  26. Mandy Allen April 26, 2016 at 7:11 am #

    Halloween always brings some great ghost stories out of the woodwork! I think you ate too much cheese before bed. Gripping symbolism, thanks for sharing!

    Enjoy the journey!
    Mandy Allen´s last blog post ..Be A Light In This World

  27. ikechi May 27, 2016 at 11:49 am #

    Hi David

    You had me glued with surprise in this post. I am just imagining how you felt when you were in your dream but the lesson is profound; sometimes we are our own enemy . Thank you for this post and have a lovely week. Take Care
    ikechi´s last blog post ..Why You Shouldn’t Throw Any of Yourself Away

  28. Alex Jones June 2, 2016 at 4:04 pm #


    That’s one powerful dream! And you’re an incredible writer too! Very detailed, vivid, an attention grabbing. Any tips on helping me write like that? 🙂
    Alex Jones´s last blog post ..Why You Need SEO

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